this morning i got a call from my grandmother...another one of my aunts died just last night...someone i knew all my life...every saturday my grandma and i would drive to visit her...they would eat cake and drink tea while i would play in the garden, the woods or at the river...when i was 13 her son died...of testicle cancer...he was much older then me..in my mothers age...he was always a very kind and warm heartet person...then..about 5 years ago her husband died...ach..i always liked him a lot...he was a funny and interesting charakter..had always something interesting to tell and a gift to capture your attention with every word he would say...and now my aunt died...i havent seen her in a while....and i wnated to call her about two weeks ago..but i hat my voice chord infection..and i thought...well...i didnt thought anything...i didnt knew we were in a hurry...i thought what i always think: we have time...
but..the truth is..we dont have time...no matter how young or old, healthy or sick our loved ones are....we dont have time...someone once said time is like a river..and it is..it flows..and runs...slips through between our fingers..and doesent come back...so...we dont really have time...one more reason to use it propperly...
i m really down today...and there is a lot more i want to write about..but...my head is so full...and so empty at the same time...my family..once so big and blossoming...is dying..gets smaller and smaller...
if you have someone you love....tell them as often as you can...because we dont have time even so we think we do....
Brad Paisley
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Well, it is the way of it- people we love die and our hearts break open again.
I am sorry, Danielle. I know she loved you.
thank you mary...as always..you are so right...and we never get used to have our hearts cut open...which is..after all...a good thing
I'm sorry you're hurting in that way. I feel like you do in that my family used to get together often and we are a big clan and lots of interactions, music, food and goings on, celebrations, etc... Now we are all separated by physical distance, and by death.
It is hard to realize that we have become the adults and the adults have become the elders.
Maybe you find your own way to honor her life and express what you need to.
Hope you feel better soon,
pf
@ pf
i see you totally understand me..thank you for your kind words...
it was alwayslike that...huge parties and fmaily gatherings...but the adults are the elders..and the most of the elders die now:-( and the young ones became the adults..and somehow..there are no new young ones in my family..:-( most of my generation (in the family) is childless...only one of my cousins had a baby last year...and this year my youngest sister is having her first baby...but thats all :-(
That something! Also men can have children much longer than women, so there is also that... and the minis.
I do get it. Even though it goes on, it is different. Our deep connections to each other and our culture of how we are together changes. I am nostalgic for the old days myself.
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