Wednesday, December 30, 2009

lay your hands on me

i dont wanna speak about goals because goal always sounds so,,,i dont know...there are just more positiv sounding words..like wish or plan...i gave up having goals years ago..because they put so much preassure on me..and i was all year long busy chasing goals...so i gave that up..and replaced that by making plans..or even less...during the last years it was more like i knew what i wanted to do and..just did it..worked on it without preassure and made it..or not..sometimes i struggle..and stumble...but then you are there...offering your hands...and somehow thats all what i need ..a little help of my family and my friends..and i ll dust myself up..and try again..make new plans and make them coming true...
each year on my birthday my family and i drive into the countryside and bring so called sky lampions...we write our wishes on them...well..thats not true..my family writes their wishes..i ..secretly write down what i wish for them...because i believe that this energy..the good things someone else, who loves you and wishes for you is much stronger then the things you wish for yourself...we light the candles inside..hold them lampions until the warm air fills them up an dlet them go..make them rise over the water of the nightly lake...we let them rise and take our wishes along...and maybe a little bit of ourself along too...the picnic we just had..the warm summer air..the taste of wine and kisses on our lips...the kids who jump up exited because of the rising fire across the nightly sky...the sounds of the woods...the trees swaying back and forth so slowly that you barely see it but hear it...and you sit down close to the waters edge...and you feel both full and empty at one time..and you see your wishes rise up skywards...wishes and prayers..thats the closest we can get to heaven while we are down here working on our lifes and plans...the luckiest of us dont have to do that alone..the luckiest of us build their life with many hands not just their own...this year was hard for many of our friends...a lot changes came ..good and bad ones too....had you help?
i really hope you did..and when you faced the darkness i hope i was a good friend and gave you some solace..a word..a smile or a shoulder..i hope i reached out and offered my hand to you and helped you to get up again...and if i wasnt there i hope someone else were...i hope someone else gave you reason and sense...made you see again ...and thats what i wish for all of us for the next year too...the strengths to keep on working on our plans no matter what it is we are wishing for...dont let us leave each other ion darkness...if someone is close by ..and life is getting him down...offer your hand...and if i am that one..washed away by life..when my heaven crushes down on me...please give me a word..a smile..lay your hands on me when i fall down and lift me from the shadows...help me to keep my head above the water...help me to turn this car around..help me run or swim for my life..help me getting back on my feet..back on my way...just..lay your hands on me until i breathe again
and if that coming year is full of summer moons,full of cloudles skies, laughter and picnics, if all goes well...if i m rising each day higher and higher...if everything goes all well...when laughter runs from my lips like pearls and seashells...please..be there too..gimme your hand so we can share those moments too...because where is the sense in it..when i m happy and you arent there?

i dont wanna speak about goals..and i dont wanna speak about my own wishes...tell me about yours..tell me what you wish for yourself and for those you love...offer a hand...reach out ....and unveil love

26 comments:

Ms. Moon said...

I just wish to read beautiful words like these. Thank-you for that writing, for those wishes, for that light.
Thank-you for the reminder to help each other.
Thank-you for being you, Danielle.
Happy New Year.

Danielle said...

@ ms moon

helping each other might be the best what we can do..isnt it like that?

to pic up a subkect from A T´s blog: we arent robots...we are so easy to hurt sometimes...and asking for help is a thing most of us can not do without hurting their pride,,so..its importnat that we help them without getting asked for help...

happy new year to´you too..i ll toast to you and our friends tomorrow night...

Petit fleur said...

Beautiful words, beautiful images, beautiful ritual. As far as I know, the big ritual here is to get smash ass drunk... I like yours so much better!

I guess I plan for my family to have more fun and loving moments together. I also plan on my hub and I to find professional fulfillment (both internally, and externally)... That is necessary! (I'm using the word plan instead of wish on purpose for extra emphasis)

I hope 2010 is a marvelous year for you, filled with fun and magical surprises.
xo pf

Jo said...

well, I told you already...

but the blog has never looked so beautiful, and this is the best new year's eve post I've ever read.

Lights in the sky.. .watch them rise, my darling.

Sophia Valenti said...

Such beautiful, heartfelt words, Danielle.

Goals as we so traditionally think of them pale in comparison to the importance of living life so generously and gracefully. Thank you for the reminder.

riendo said...

Yes , it's a self portrait.
It's a sequence of 5 shots...;)
What an irony,
i missed the show in los angeles, my hometown,
to end up having an actual piece in detroit, for the same show.
which i can't even attend.
My first legit show and i can't be their....oh well..
maybe next time.

Danielle said...

@ petit fleur

ah..getting drunke and all can be a wonderfull thing too:-)

thank you for your kind wishes and words and i hope everything on your list for 2010 will turn out the way it was planned..or better..:-)

Danielle said...

@ jo

yes you said it..and the other things you said...maybe were the best coment i ever had...:-)

Danielle said...

@ sophia

thank you for hopping over to my little part of blogland..as well as for your wonderful coment:-)

it needs a heart to recognice heartfeld words..so..thank you for your coment a lot..have a good start into the new year:-)

Danielle said...

@ riendo

aw..thats bad...i m sur ethere will be a next time...:-)

and i hope we will be able to see the piece too at one point...

Allegra Smith said...

I read your comments at Ms.Moon's place and you are always so kind and tender, so attentive and helpful that I couldn't let this time go by without telling you this and thanking you for your wishes - which I share in toto - and my own wishes for a new year with plenty to share and to give, with love in abundance and joy to deliver it.

Danielle said...

@ allegra

you followed me home! i apreciate that:-)as well as your wonderful coment..:-)

have agood start into the new year and feel free to come back again..:-)

Marina said...

Ah, Danielle, that was beautiful! Lovely sentiments, lovely images - Thank you! Have a wonderful, peaceful New Year!

Janine Ashbless said...

Beautiful!

Bethany said...

Here from Jo's blog.
Wow. This writing is so beautiful.
And the photos.
Thanks for the reminder. I was helped so much in my darkness. I always am. I want to be more like you and send my wishes for others up into the night. I will try to do more of that this year. Help back.

Danielle said...

@ marina

thank you! i hope u had a good start into 2010 too:-)

Danielle said...

@ janine

ah..you make me blush:-)

Danielle said...

@ bethany
ha..i love guests to come over from jo:-)

thank you for that wonderful coment:-)

Anonymous said...

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Geeks in Rome said...

these pictures are beautiful. What a great tradition!

Emerald said...

Happy New Year Danielle!

This was SUCH a beautiful post. Thank you so much. Beautiful, beautiful, beautiful, and I also loved what you said about goals and fully agree — I don't recall having said I "set a goal" for myself for years. I don't feel oriented toward it.

I have so appreciated the opportunity to know you in 2009 and much appreciate your presence in my online life! Love and hugs to you.

Anonymous said...

How do you think credit crunch affected porn?

Danielle said...

@ geeks in rome

oh thank you :-)

Danielle said...

@ emerald
thank you for that wonderful and delighted coment..you know your coments are always beutiful too..:-)

neve black said...

That's just breathtaking. Really.