Tuesday, December 1, 2009

back into life

...so now i m back on my two feet since about 2 or 3 days...and what can i say? i really have a hard time to finde back into my all-day/every-day life...everything kinda feels surreal and forreign and i still feel that damned swine flu in my bones...

the biggest problem is the fact that i was suffering from heavy fever dreams and hallucinations while i was sick...heavy stuff..about my grandparents relatives in concentration camps...about really weird stuff...and now i m back on track to be well again its hard for me to realice what was true and what isnt...actually its really simple: nothing was true....but its actually kinda hard for me to realice that nothing has changed while i was sick because everything feels strange and foreign and it feels like things have changed..i know i sound like a fool but thats the truth..that right now everything feels arteficial...:-/

14 comments:

Ms. Moon said...

You are not really all well yet, you know. That fever stuff really gets into your brain and it takes a while for the world to return to normal. I always feel like I'm watching a movie when I am getting sick. It sounds like your movies were not good ones. Be gentle with yourself until you are all the way healed.

Jo said...

Hummm.. I'm sure there's a remedy for exactly this, but I don't know it. Maybe take some arnica, it's good for grounding - you take it for jet lag. Maybe it would help bring you back into yourself? Can't do any harm anyway.

Danielle said...

@ ms moon

that might be the fact..:-/ i guess i have to wait some more to be all well again

Danielle said...

@ jo

i have arnica as a liquid..do you think that helps too?

Jo said...

Yup. A liquid like a tincture or a cream? Internally is better, but a cream would be better than nothing.

Danielle said...

yes a liquid..like drops...i laready startet to take it..

Petit fleur said...

In some circles that type of dreaming would be called a Shamanic dream. (Transformational) Like a vision, steeped in heavy meaning and symbolism. Linked with anscestory.

It could be that you are being "called" in some way to do something specific... perhaps you are emerging as a healer yourself.. ??
Interesting.

Or maybe you're just not 100 percent well yet :-)

Hope you feel better soon.
pf

Erobintica said...

I second Jo's recommendation for arnica. Glad you are getting back.

Marta L. said...

Danielle, hope you get well soon and better slowly than quick. we have plenty of time ... :) wish you all good and talk to you soon!
xMarta
ps. and thanks for everything, it's been really long since my last comment but now i felt like i have to say to you that...it's been a pleasure to know you :)

Danielle said...

@ petit fleur

i dont know if that was shamanic stuff or just bad dreams..but for now i m actually happy thats its over..:-)

Danielle said...

@ marta

thank you for that wonderfull coment of yours:-)

you know i love your work a lot and i m happy we have a lot more time :-)

Danielle said...

@ robin

oh no..i hobbled over your coment!

i m already on the arnica trip and i feel slightly better..:-)

Jeremy Edwards said...

Just catching up here—so sorry you've been ill! : ( I'm glad you're on the mend now. Be gentle with yourself!

Danielle said...

@ jeremy

ah thank you..i stikll can use some getting well wishes..but i mon the best way back..:-)